On one of our last drives around the countryside, doing our exploring , we found this park.
We wandered along the paths, mowed through high grass, coming upon old benches under big trees to sit and enjoy views, listen to the geese and other creatures here and there, and look at the mountains in the distance.
It was so peaceful and beautiful and while of course, there was no foreboding or knowing what was about to come, we were both very soothed and felt quiet and peaceful after being here.
I try to hang on to that feeling, how it made me feel, I try to pretend he is still there .. waiting for me.
Or at least, still beside me..
This week I will have company and will not be alone , as I am not alone now, there is a tiny visitor and his mama with me and his daddy will arrive tomorrow and we will be a little family, missing an important part but we are still here and loving each other and taking comfort from that.
I hoped my daughter would be able to come but maybe for Christmas, that will be good too.
I can't really post blogs right now, it is too difficult still.
But I wanted to say that I am fine, Thank you for the notes and the good wishes and all the love that is sent to me .. thank you.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving , I will be back soon.