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My husband and I , with our dog, Tate, moved to Buenos Aires.. Life has never been the same since ~ Back in the USA ... life is still not the same !
It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new.
But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful.
There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.
Alan Cohen
"Outside of a dog, a book is a man's best friend.
Inside of a dog, it's too dark to read."
Groucho Marx
The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.

Friday, November 17, 2017


It is SO hard to adjust to the seasons here ... it always looks the same, the sun shines, the flowers bloom and trees  stay green .. of course most of them are pine trees.

Birds  fly over ... coming South from way up North.
Not long ago, in the lake in this community, a large flock of geese stopped to take a break from all that flying, had a bite to eat and floated around , making quiet a lot of noise and probably mess in the water.

Then they took off in one grand display of  Winged Migration

The cats were SO annoying this morning.
If they are cold, get back under the damed covers and shut up !
If they are hungry, there are dishes of food all over the house !
If they want company ... get on the bed with me and STFU ...

Yes, I woke up cranky. Cold, annoyed and cranky ... oh and there were remnants of a dream that was best forgotten.

It is Friday.
I will do whatever is on my To Do List then I will go back to making plans.
This living in Limbo is depressing .. Time to do something about it..

I might need to dust off my wings.

Thursday, November 16, 2017

The Story So Far

It is not punishment to live in such a pretty place . Although an alligator has made its way into the water and will have to be escorted back to where he came from. So no small dogs, humans or cats near the water for a few days ... AS IF I would go there ever again ! Even without cats or dogs..

There are no clouds today .. pure blue skies. Chilly, a sweater or light jacket is needed.
My car is totally legal, I can drive without worry again. I admit I didn't really worry that much .. for some reason... I , who worry about Everything ... did not worry about my license plates.

Someone said to me one time, about being brave etc ... When the worst has happened .. you sort of don't worry about the same stuff the way you used to ...

Perhaps this is true for me ... I only worry about the cats and having enough gas in the car .. and making sure that all the doors are locked  .. the crime rate in this city is not good ... shameful.

So plans are still being mulled over.

A Story For You :

Once upon a time, there was a man who was married to a lady .. they were madly in love  .. every year they laughed and commented on Another Year and Still being so In Love.
They were both travelers .. they loved to go to faraway places and see things and meet people and hear different languages and music and see the sights .
The Man had lived in quite a few Faraway places .. wonderful places ... India, Kashmir and Paris and London and Italy etc.
He knew People which was quite a kick for the Lady who got to hear the stories, see the photos, make plans to see them again , with him ... to meet his friends and go to their concerts and listen to them talk and to travel to faraway places ... with him.

Then one day, that chapter ended and the lady had to start figuring out how to go on with the Story.
She thought a change of scenery would be good.
She thought a change of climate would be pleasant.
She packed, changed address, drove a long way with the cats and ideas and plans and .........

to be continued ..

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

A Touch of Red

I took this photo years ago. On one of our daily walks all over the city of Buenos Aires .. camera in hand, dog leash in the other hand ... husband by my side ... Boy , have times changed.

Monday, November 13, 2017

The Cat Saga

When everything bad happened in our new home in New York .. I sat for days , alone and quiet .. waiting.
Waiting for something .. not sure what  .. I didn't know then, I am not sure now .. but I remembered how my husband would tell me to just sit down somewhere comfortable and be still, be quiet and breathe ... it will all happen ..
So that is what I did ... I would sit and just be still ... let my mind drift .. not to linger on one thought or another too long .. just drift and it would settle in its own time and I would be more peaceful.

My husband lived in India .. he trained with someone well known  and eventually taught people how to Meditate .. how to Be Still ...
So it was easy for him to tell me how to relax , how to avoid a panic attack , how to Be Still.

I sit around too much these days , I take walks and go to the market ( by car) but it isn't the same as it used to be .. I am not in the same great shape I was when we got back to the US ...

So I have started taking walks in the afternoon and while I live in a 2 story condo and run  up and down a big flight of stairs all day long .. it feels better to do that walking/running outdoors, where you can breathe and clear the cobwebs ..

I , through fate and perhaps someone watching ... am the mother of 3 cats.
Minette I intended to get ... Merlin was a surprise that I wanted and got ... Honey .. my moms sweet huge baby was not expected, wanted or even considered ... until I was informed that she would be put in a shelter or whatever ... then I took her.. how could I not ?
I loved my mom. She loved her cat. I love my cats. How could I not take Honey ??
Who will take my babies ? Merlin would be so confused and sad .. and afraid. He isn't that brave anymore .. my poor old man with bad eyesight.

Minette would be freaked out because she is still a baby girl with only Merlin and I for a family, with Honey now too ... she knows nothing else .

And Honey, sweet huge Honey, no one would want her and no one would treat her well.
She can beat up a dog. She has the meow of a tiny cat ... She breaks my back when I pick her up ..
but when she purrs, I will pick her up a dozen times.

A couple of days ago .. the cats were out on the lanai, their daytime home ... they don't want to come in anymore, they love the lanai and the fresh air and sunshine for naps all day.. and an occasional curiosity, like the sound of big birds, the men who ride standing up lawn mowers , a snake , etc.
But it was none of those things .. it was a cat.
A lovely cat ... black and white. Came right to the door like it knew it was home .. how could I let it in ?? I made bowls of food and water and put it outside the lanai door.
It ate, drank and left.
Now I worry about it, I wait to see it , I wonder ...

I got my license plates. I am a legal driver in Florida. Guess I will move back to New York . Laughing. Out. Loud. or maybe I'm not ..

Monday , Cat Monday

So far it has been a perfect Monday ...
I was awakened too early by grumpy cats .. some want in , some want out, some want to snuggle, others are just plain grumpy.
Count me in   the grumpy camp.

We all traipsed down to the kitchen, way before 8 am and food was quickly arranged in the right bowl for the right kitty and peace returned ..
Except for that faint meowing I heard ..... the lost cat.

There he was .. outside my lanai door, meowing, huddled close to the screen, away from the wet grass and chill of the early grey morning ..

I know all the Smart things to do and Not to do and How I should manage things .. I did that yesterday. But today, this is a damp, chilled, lost young cat with a not very old wound that the neighbor thinks is from being hit by a car ... it walks, it talks, it eats and meows at the top of its lungs so it is more well than not ... except .. it doesn't seem to have a Home.
All cats should have a Home. No matter how small, rich, poor or warm ... there should be at least one person who cares about a little helpless animal that really doesn't ask for much at all.
And will never send you a bill for services rendered and never gives up on you or shuns you or decides they like the Other cat better ...

So I got disposable plastic containers ( thank you local bakery) and one was filled with water, good clean water ... and one with the mistake kibble cat food I bought .. It was in the cupboard to donate to some shelter, but I had not gotten around to finding the shelter and doing it  ... now it is being put to use ... Everything is for a Reason.

So this poor (really beautiful) cat is dry and eating its breakfast at the moment.
The damage on its thigh is not quite as angry looking. The lady next door took photos so she can find out hopefully, where he belongs.

For now at least .. he is not starving and if worse comes to worse, there is shelter on my lanai or the lady's next door.

I have to make plans and figure out what to do with myself.
I have to do laundry and clean up the condo a little ... did you know cat hair reproduced ? yeah.
Start out with 2 and there are 10 just a few minutes later.

So this is my Monday List of Things To Do ...
                  Find a home for a cat.

Cats are like potato chips.
You can never have just one.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Make It Memorable

I would like  to go Home.
Yeah, New York.Especially at this time of year ..
This is the time of year that I arrived in NYCity for the first time ... meeting my husband within the first month that I was there ...

The weather is dreary today but I sort of like that, I never realized how sick you can get of the same blue skies and sunshine every day ...
As Sarah Miles said in the film White Mischief ... upon waking up and walking over to look out the window .... "Another F*ing Beautiful Day "

I now get excited when it is cloudy and cool.
I also have cats to cope with ... no, not the babies that live with me ... the babies that Want to live with me.
A new little cat has shown up at the back of my home, by the lanai door ... a little thing, grey tiger almost kitten .. meows and waits ... someone must have let it live inside and go outside .. stupid humans.
The miracle is ... a car has not run over it yet ... a creature out in that forest hasn't eaten it yet ...
I have not adopted it yet ...

I am feeding it though .. I can't help it . It is not in me to let a small half adult cat/kitten starve when I have bags and bags of cat food and 3 very well fed cats ... We all have our ... issues .. children and animals are mine. The helpless ones ... those who depend on others for food, shelter, life .. and if they are really lucky , love.
I can't do anything about this kitten but keep it fed and watered when possible.

In New York, on my little acre Upstate, I had a corn field as a back neighbor ... so there were plenty of deer in my garden and walking through the property to go to a lake across the street ... behind the neighbor's house.
We all knew what was happening and when and everyone was cool with it .
When the mother deer would cautiously walk across the street with little fawns following close to her, I fought the urge to run out and be sure no cars would race down the street and hit one of my deer.
Only once did I actually stop a car ... but he saw it and would have stopped anyway .. the mama deer with 2 babies walking close to her side ..

I don't want to hear about the negative side of having deer in the garden ... unless someone wants to hear the negative aspects of ... who lives next door, where your kids are at night, who votes and why and what will the saving of a deer matter in the grand scheme of things other than my heart won't be that little  bit heavier ?

I have all these books that my sister in law has given me over the years.
I donated bags of them to the ElderCare Home near where I lived .. in Chatham NY.
I'm telling you ... the choice is .. you look around and there are all these books and you won't read them again and they are taking up room and gathering dust ..
1- throw them away ( I never ever throw away a book)
2- donate them to a hospital, nursing home, free book exchange ....

 So it is 10 am on a Saturday morning in Florida on November 11th ..
Have a great weekend .. make it memorable. 

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

What's in a Name ?

My daughter is digging through the vaults of time and places long forgotten and digging up our ancestors.
I am having such fun, I do nothing, each day she gives me a gift of information about people from so long ago and far away and yet, here I am and they were my family ... I am "from them " .. if you know what I mean.

My mothers two sisters, married brothers (Pringles) so there are a whole lotta Pringles in my family ..
Today's google search ( my version of research on the family tree) was pretty good ..
Old stone towers and keeps and rolling Scottish countryside .. 

And when I was in my 20s and at home with small children, I used to read Historic Romance novels so you can imagine what I am picturing ... right back there in my ancestors neighborhoods ... rolling hills, Castle Keeps and horsemen and a sword fight now and then ...

I have a friend in Scotland, I sent her the news ... we are long lost sisters ... well, stranger things can happen ..  Hicksville , Long Island NY was founded by one of my ancestors ... how bout dat ?

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

I Don't Care

I just realized that I am posting cat photos quite a lot ... I have to be careful with that. The old cat lady thing creeps up on you and there you are,  when you least expect it , a crazy cat lady.

Yes,  this is a dog .

The cats are soaking up warm Florida sunshine.
The cats are on the lookout for the sweet and beautiful cat that came to the door of the lanai last night, asking if he could come in.
We will not speak of how hard it was for me to say no.
So I gave him a lot of food and water.
There was some food and water left this morning but so far, no sign of the beautiful cat ..
I am torn about it .. I hope it is back home where it is safe and cared for.
I can't take it in, so let it be in its own home. I am glad I got to see it and feed it. Let that be enough.

Friends are taking trips and I want to go on one too !
I want to visit Buenos Aires the most ... but there is NY and a whole list of places I want to go ..
For now- I will appreciate the weather and the fact that it is not and probably will not snow here in the next few months.

Last Christmas was awful so I am also hoping that this year it will be better, it won't take much for it to be better ..
I have decided to just drift along while I read and ponder and figure and make decisions at another time. If I have to be bored and lonely  in the winter, at least let it be sunny and warm. Next winter we will plan for ...

My daughter has one of the cutest ... no, The Cutest puppy ever.
She has a little baby girl Shih Tzu ... I have never had a tiny dog except for puppies but an adult puppy sized dog is appealing... of course, my cats are bigger but that might be fun.

I have discovered that I have a couple of car scratches from parking lot a**holes ...  at the supermarket .
I have a black car. One scratch is all the way down to the white underneath ..
One door has a tiny dent ... w t f ?

So this is another reason why I am best off staying home today.
I have no ... what's that thing that keeps you from saying what you are thinking ?
or saying something threatening to a stranger ? Here in Florida, you never know who has a gun so I have to keep my temper from getting me in trouble ..
Not just temper ... since I am alone so much, I find I just say what I think without stopping and editing what will ruffle feathers etc ...

Yes, I am getting to be a Curmudgeon ... and right now ... I don't care.

Monday, November 6, 2017

Little Cat

Today would have been my  Anniversary ..
My 46th Anniversary.

We would have had plans made for a trip, most likely .. that was our usual Anniversary celebration ..
That and my Birthday in March.

We went to London on our Anniversary  ..then we went back on my birthday  ... then to Paris ... then to Argentina ... all those years , all those lovely celebrations .

And today ... so far ... I have spent the morning trying to feed a lost cat that sits in the forest behind my home and meows and runs away if I  open the door.
It is a beautiful cat .. sort of long haired   but colors of a grey tiger cat  with beautiful  big green eyes.
Still so young .. afraid .. breaks my heart.

Friday, November 3, 2017

Speaking of Hypnotic Stares

I don't know ... I just don't know ... but I like it.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017


Honey will be perfecting her Hypnotic Trance Stare today

Tuesday, October 31, 2017


November is a month that is full of all sorts of things for me ... memories, good, bad and sad.
I love November as far as weather and fall colors and good memories through the years ..
My moms birthday was November ..
My husband and I were married November 6th, I used to see it as the time fun started, cooler temps, weekends in Upstate NY with leaves falling and apple picking and baking and family dinners .
Quite a few family members have birthdays in November ... it has mostly been a good month for all of us .
Even in Florida, the weather has cooled down to a crisp chill at night and while there are no trees changing colors that I can see .. it feels good ... the air smells good .. it is Autumn .

I wish I was in New York right now, I would like seeing those trees in all their glory, reds and golds and piles of leaves on the ground, the smell of burning on weekends when the raking and cleaning up happens.

Here it is crisp and cool .. There are no fall colors in the trees though .. there are only pine trees.
But it feels good out there .. the cats nap out on the lanai then stagger into the house and nap on the sofa ..
I guess Autumn is Nap Time for some creatures ..

Maybe I will try that ...

Happy Autumn ~

Friday, October 27, 2017


  On the walk to the  mailbox.
I might be bored to tears and lonely a lot of the time but I can't deny it is a pleasant place to be.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Trick or Treat ?

The Trick :  I got my license plates today. I am now officially a Florida Driver.
I had to drive to Hell and back and everyone there was as kind as could be and helpful and sympathetic and I was very lucky to have that nice experience when I was dreading the whole thing so much.
Then the second part I was dreading happened but I managed .. I got lost. But finally I saw a sign that said I-95 which mean that if I got on that, it would eventually lead me home ... and it did.

I was driving 70 mph in the slow lane with a truck tailgating me ... just in case I wanted to be stressed just a little more. I wanted to tap my brake but was afraid he would hit me so I changed lanes when I could and wanted to do a Happy Dance when I saw a familiar landmark and ended up getting off the highway much closer to my home than I thought I would.

The cats were so glad to see me and I was pretty glad to see them ... no one wants to drive or even move at my house tonight.
Dinner ?  whatever  ... as long as I do not have to get in that car .. or think.
Thinking is so overrated .. it just makes you tired. And you get nowhere doing it.

The Treat : I 'll call a  restaurant nearby and order  dinner and if they deliver, even better.
I hope your day was more treats than tricks ... wait until Halloween !!!

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

My Brain is Melting

After the nonsense I went through today with red tape paperwork , blah ,blah , blah and then trying to find my way home ... I got soooo lost ... it took forever and my panic attacks were having panic attacks.

I stopped at one place to ask for directions and a young man and his wife were sitting at a picnic table outside under a massive Banyan tree .. I wished I were sitting there relaxing and appreciating the beauty instead of being twisted inside with anxiety and worry ... the wife was holding their new baby .. a beautiful little girl ... I wanted one  ... sigh~ They aren't as easy to get as they used to be :)

Today just did me in ... prepare yourself for whining crying and if you have no patience, make a run for it now...
Honey the cat stood by me with me weeping and wailing, Minette bumped heads with me and Merlin woke up to kiss me then back to sleep.

I managed to find my way to the place to get my papers changed with the new address etc from NY to Fl for my car .. So that alone was a dreadful long drive ... then a long drive on pretty 2 lane roads where I prayed I would not break down .. who knew how long it would be before they found me .. shriveled up in the car .. clinging to the steering when with one hand and my phone in the other .. 

I sat and waited maybe half an hour then a very brusque lady called my number and I walked up and told her why I was there and what I did not have with me ... she said Can't help you, come back when you have it all. Then she went back to chatting with the girls and I walked out to the car dejectedly but started getting a little pissed that she spoke to me so rudely..

I started driving home, totally depressed that it didn't happen and I will have to do it again.
Then somehow ... I was lost the wilds of North Florida. I drove along for a while, it was at least a pretty drive with massive trees dripping moss lining the 2 land road ... with very pretty and  very old homes along the way .. some behind high fences and gates.

I stopped at a little place where people were sitting at picnic tables and eating and I asked this couple for directions. They were so young. They were the very proud parents of a tiny baby girl. I have to say that this meeting with these 3 sweeties was the highlight of my day, followed by the relief and happiness when I pulled into my driveway and the cats were waiting at the door.
Of course it was dinner time but it was still good to see them when I needed it.
I can't find the Title to my car ... I thought my son had it .. he doesn't. I don't .. or maybe I do ..
I have to talk to people and see ..  this horrifies me .
They sure weren't very nice here   ... the Southern softness and politeness stops at the door of the Dept of Motor Vehicles..

I need to go back to that little cafe and sit under the Banyan tree and hold a tiny baby ..  yeah...that'll do it .

Saturday, October 21, 2017

This is Baby Charlotte


click on her name above

Cats and Hair ...

Happy Saturday !
I didn't exactly get to sleep late, but I got to lay there undisturbed for a while ... my babies are growing up .. they find something to eat and take a nap somewhere quiet ... I adore kittens but this is the Upside to having a cat.
I don't have to walk them and they munch on dry kibble left down for them ..

I wanted to do something today but I think , I will just spend today trying to be peaceful.

Worrying about red tape sort of things in Florida, thinking about life back in NY, thinking about life back in Buenos Aires ... being walked over and sat upon by large kitties who have no idea that they are not petite little kittens ..
I think Honey weighs about 20 lbs ... I tried to weigh her .. my back has still not recovered ..
She is huge , heavy and slippery ... can't figure it out but Minette is small and sleek and easy to hold, Merlin is a large (heavier than he looks) hairy old man who just goes limp. He knows ... you can't fight it, just surrender ... Mama is going to kiss you ... just be still and take it like a man / cat.

The sun is blazing in the window, the clouds are skimming by and the man on the radio is talking about storms ... please god, let them be somewhere else .. that needs rain ..

My friends from NY who were living in Fl ... have returned to NY.
Increasing my longing to be there .. my memories of all the good stuff ... my fear that it is true -
You can't go back. We won't even discuss missing Buenos Aires ..sigh ~

Have I mentioned that I got a haircut ... first one since being in Florida .. I needed a trim .. I got a lopsided haircut .. I hate it ..
My hair is a hairdressers dream , it is easy to handle, does what you tell it to do and being straight, it is easy to cut. IF you know what you are doing .. you don't have to comb that little handful of hair 30 times before snipping it ... you should know to check the bottom when you are done ... is it level ? straight across ? do the sides match ? one isn't longer than the other is it ?
This girl did none of those things ... I did .. She failed.
I will go back to NY for my next haircut.

Happy Saturday !!

Friday, October 20, 2017

Friday Night and

Friday ... I remember when Fridays were looked forward to , plans made for Friday nights, weekend plans made ... and then, one day .. every night was Friday night and every day was the weekend.
But it was still fabulous ..

Here, now, Friday nights are only recognised because there might be something to watch on the television. Otherwise, Every night is Friday night and every day is Saturday ... except when I want an office to be open for something important and I have to wait until Monday !!

This whole car license plate deal has become ... well ... an ordeal.
They were closed today when I drove over to do it .. there is more to it than I thought and I don't have one thing that they need so I have to send away and wait for it ... the whole thing is annoying  and I feel like just saying to hell with it and go back to NY.
I mean really, I am driving a new car with license plates and registration etc and they want one more thing ..  there is no One More Thing ...

And of course, I get anxious and then the heart thing happens and to hell with it, I can take my car with NY license plates and go back to NY .

There, that felt good.

Dinner was ridiculously Southern and I loved it.
Fried chicken with grits. yep .. I have gone over to the dark side, dark meat chicken with buttery grits.

So it is Friday night and the weekend is ahead and I have nothing planned.

What are you doing ? What is The Plan ?
I remember making plans for weekends in the old days, dinners, Sunday drives Upstate, Feria in San Telmo on Sunday with Tango in the streets ... now ... nothing.
Oh wait, not "nothing" ... heavy rains are expected with flooding.
I can't find the words ......

So moving on,  to more fun things ...  my Genealogy ...
wow ... The Names I Could Drop !!!!

One of my 8th cousins ... had a son ... who became President of the United States ...  not that long ago.

Friday Night 

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Her Name is Honey

My mom named that cute little kitten, Honey. When I was a child we had a little yellow kitten that mom named Honey Bee .. Honey Bee died in an accident and my mom was broken hearted.
Years later .. about a year ago .. my mom got this comical kitten ... and named her Honey.
Because that was Moms endearment .. her children and her pets .. we were all Honey.
And now she is mine ... Honey .. silly, comical, sweet, huge Honey.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Even Now

I don't know how I did it , but I just looked in the mirror, the full length mirror and a woman from the 1950's  was looking back at me.

She has long blonde hair   to the shoulders,  that is sort of doing this bouffant flip thing ...
I know she didn't mean to get that look, there are days that her  hair has a mind of its own.
Today was one of those days ... Mary Tyler Moore with blonde hair might sum it up.

The weight gain, to ease off the big weight loss ( that was not needed in the first place) has been coming along but I think I am going to stop where I am and not think about it anymore.
The more you think about how much/little you weigh , the more anxious you can get about eating .. too much, too little .. don't think about it.
Eat right, eat when it is mealtime and not too much   ... the end.

I have been told to go shopping, not to worry about anything.
I won't go shopping but I admit to having a tiny spree online with and Cuisinart.
Yeah, Makeup and Gold  Coffee Filters.....  I am going wild.

The cats are all at ease .. we all have settled on Who goes Where on the bed at night and during the day .We all have our spots that we like best.
I get the most spots and sometimes someone has to move over and let me in ... that is the way it is at my house ..
Minette is still my darling .. she is such a Good Girl and so sweet .
Merlin breaks my heart every day with his sweetness and age , he is so very dear to me.
Honey is the baby, even though she is the largest, she is the youngest and has attached herself to me.
I am in my chair at my desk.
She is on the antique toy chest under the window, next to my desk .. I put a blanket on the chest .. you never know when a kitty will drop in for a nap.

I am making plans for my future, this   feels  like I am in a lovely nest .. watching my days drift by .. my life is drifting ... I want to do more than drift .. I want to see more than the cats every day ..
I want to do something more .. so plans are cooking .. thoughts are swirling ..

I have hopes and dreams, even now ..

Thank you but I don't need advice on eating or shopping ...

Saturday, October 14, 2017

The Weekend

Minette my little beauty... making her weekend plans.

We are waiting for the weather to decide if it will be a hurricane-like day or just sun and clouds and hot.
So far, we are sun,  clouds and hot.

The girls and Merlin are all napping.
Mama is fighting the urge to join them.
At least until afternoon !

Wishing everyone a fun weekend ... be safe ...

Friday, October 13, 2017

Friday 13

I hope everyone has a good and lucky Friday the 13th ...
The cats and I are doing work around the house ... As you can guess, their job is more on the keeping an eye on things and directing once in a while. It always seems to involve a food dish though.

The weather has been fine. Not too hot, no rain so far.
There is constant talk about Hurricanes and nothing has happened so far, for this I am very grateful.
I find this to be a reason for hating living here ... the threat hanging over you .. a killer storm, floods etc.
Give me some good old fashioned NY snowstorms, a summer thunderstorm .. I don't need weather drama. I like my own dramas , thank you very much.

Stay safe, enjoy your day .... what's happening this weekend ? Tell me ...

C and my familiars ...

Monday, October 9, 2017

Fond Memories

 Natures Beauty in Oregon
Now and then when I get tired of the heat and humidity in Florida, when I remember when I lived here before with my husband, we took a 2 week vacation to Portland, Oregon ..
It was so lovely, leaving hot and humid Florida and arriving to the cool summer temperatures of Oregon.
We rented a car and drove to the Coast ... we went to the waterfalls, there are many of them, we went to the Lookout where you could see forever .. it was all magical and beautiful and a wonderful vacation.

So as most people do, we talked and reminisced about the place ... especially in the hot humid weather of Summer in Florida ..
And then that last straw ... the Tornado warnings ... me dashing into the bathroom in the center of the house with no windows, jumping into the bathtub with a full grown Standard Poodle who thought this was great fun ... and my husband, standing in the doorway to the bathroom, laughing helplessly at me ..
We did online research .. we talked to people ... we packed up and put the dog in the car and drove to our new home in Portland..
Every day was good. Fun and pleasant. The people were very nice.
The neighborhood and our new home were very nice ... the food was wonderful and summer in Portland was perfect... that first year.
I remember it all fondly.

Saturday, October 7, 2017


Today was a good day .. an interesting day to say the least ..
I take my coffee in the mornings and go out on the lanai and sip and listen and enjoy the warmth and quiet and view of the woods ... just a few feet from my home.

This morning there was a little something new added to the view.

A baby cougar, playing in the grass. With Mama watching from the edge of the woods.
They were both so beautiful and it sort of boggled my mind that there I was , at home in my pajamas, having a cup of coffee and watching a baby cougar and its mama out on the grass ..
I was still and quiet and glad the cats were sleeping in the house ..

Eventually a sound or something made the mama get up and mosey on back into the woods, with baby right behind her.
I know there are creatures in the forest ... but I never expected to see a cougar and baby ..
It was a good day ..


                    Comfort is on the way ..  on the way to Las Vegas 

Friday, October 6, 2017


What a day !
I was all prepared, in my mind, for a stormy day or at least a day that threatened to look stormy.
We had bright blue skies and no clouds , dry, sunny and not too hot .. I like it !
The cats like it too ... perfect cat  nap weather, lolling on the chair with mama weather, grooming  one's leg for at least 15 minutes weather ...  a good day.

I hear rumblings about storms and things that make a person   anxious but so far no real worries .. Friends are getting ready to move back to NY .. selling a home .. with a hurricane aimed at them.
How inconvenient is that ! ?

I got an offer today .. the kind I love to get.
Someone said , come stay at my house ... I won't be there, you will have the place to yourself .. bring the cats .. no problem ... 
Well, the only problem would be mine ..  that place is a bit far away ...
I really want to do it ... I can go for a week or 6 months ... suddenly life has become full of choices and all of them fun .. or at least exciting ..

As luck would have it .. I have something else cooking so the offer might have to be held on to ... take a Rain Check ..
Let me get this other thing settled then we can talk about how long the cats and I can plan on being away ..

 Plans .. I love making plans and having plans .. although, you know what they say ..
You plan and you plan, then Life happens ...

Wednesday, October 4, 2017


Sometimes, going back in Time, sitting and remembering , enjoying Good Memories, is an excellent way to start the day.
No television, no radio, no newspapers .. online or elsewhere ... just sit and remember ..

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Paris .... Perfect

My husband and I rented an apartment in Paris, just down the street from the Eiffel Tower ..
We had 10 days of wandering and shopping and exploring and pretending we actually lived there.
Our son was able to come though France on his way from Asia to the US and stayed with us for a few days .. at our "home" on the Left Bank ... lovely memories ..

Saturday, September 30, 2017

The Good Boy

There he is ... my Good Boy.
It has been a long time now, I still miss him.
There are days that I wish he was here because I get nervous being alone and there are days I miss him because he was always fun .. if a dog can be a clown, Tate was often a clown. He would wag his tail and grin like a fool when he made me laugh .. He knew exactly what he was doing.

This photo is from the short time when we lived in Florida .. a number of years ago.
Before we visited Portland, Oregon and fell in love with that city and moved there ... where Tate became a City dog ...Oh the stories that Pup could tell.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Free Kisses


This is my new grandpuppy. Her name is Dottie ..  she is a Shih Tzu .. She is lighter than my purse, lighter than my cats and about the same size as the cats.
She is precious ... an adorable baby with all the cute puppy behaviors and makes me laugh at her wiggly little squirms when she is meeting a cat or a toy .. good times..

Monday, September 25, 2017

Blogger Issues

I have been using Blogger for years now.
I have never had a problem and recommend it.
Except .... Suddenly a few weeks ago, I found that I can blog and email and do everything as usual but on the blogs .. I cannot comment unless I switch from Chrome to Safari, which I stopped using.
But it is still in the computer ..

If there is a computer wizard out there reading this, has this ever happened to you, can  you guess what is wrong, can you help me ?

Thanks !

Cluess @ the Computer

Sunday, September 24, 2017

The Family


Dot, the new grandpuppy

Merlin My Love

 My Minette

  “when I am feeling low
all I have to do is watch my cats
and my courage returns” 

― Charles Bukowski

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

The Lake

A couple of houses down from where I live , is The Lake.
It is peaceful and pretty and now and then you get to see an egret strolling around.
I appreciate it being there, it is pretty and yet I never actually walked over and looked at it or sat by the lake and read a book or something.
So I decided to walk over, sit down with my camera and just enjoy the quiet .. the only sound is the water sound from the fountain and an occasional jet zooming way high overhead.
I should have brought a book ...

Then I remembered .. there is always a possibility of an alligator in the lake.
They come in through the waterways that feed the lake / keep it full of water ..
So while I was sitting there, an alligator could have come over to sit beside me .. or have a bite ..

I think I will appreciate the lake from afar ... an upstairs window perhaps ... a car maybe ..

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Back When I Was Happy

There was a dove's nest in that tree out there, we would open the windows and hear cooing.
At night, we discovered there was a doves nest under the air conditioner in the window- at night we could hear cooing .
A lot of cooing when on in our home ...

The ceilings were ridiculously high, the portero had to bring up a special high ladder so we could change a light bulb.

Strange, I have been back in the Unites States for 4 years now .. I don't feel as At Home as I did , back in Buenos Aires, at home.

Tate was there too ... funny, if I think about it ... I arrived in Buenos Aires with everything that was important to me and that I loved ... and now they are gone .
I have the cats now .. and I will move again .. I wonder if I will ever get that feeling of Feeling At Home again .. or is Home the people and things around you, not the Place ?

The cats and I are our little unit now ... I wonder how they would like Buenos Aires .... 

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Today & my friend Irma

Wednesday, 9/13/17

I woke a tiny bit later this morning , cats must have worn themselves out worrying about hurricanes hitting them ... and I listened .
Nope .. not a sound .. no wind. No rain . No sirens.
The cats were snuggled in so I thought, hey, they aren't worried, why should I and I slept a little longer.
It is gorgeous out,, no clouds and the sky is an amazing blue.

I hear cars .. in the distance, people are going to work ... school ... evacuating .. it is peaceful ..
The calm before the storm ?
Or is the dread, fear and worry behind us now ? Somehow I worry that that would be too easy ..
It is hovering still ..

In other news ... I am grandmother to a new puppy.
I want this puppy . She is a Shitzu ... black with a tiny white mark ... impossible not to carry her around in your hand and kiss all the time.
I have been considering the idea of getting one for myself ... the cats would be delighted .. or not.
I need a dog to add to my pack of (3) cats like a hole in the head but hey ... no one gets to tell me what I can and cannot do .. except the landlord ... but what if I move ? yeah ..

I don't like Florida anymore. You know why.

I do love my daughter and wish she would move to NY too.

So - today is a day of online work, decision making, and phone calling. work work work ...

I hope everyone is safe and dry and free of worry and dread ... I know exactly what the dread feeling is like ... I think I have it too often for most normal people.
which might mean I am not normal.... or my circumstances need to be made more normal.. we will see.

This, btw, is my new friend Irma/Little Irma  ... he/she took shelter in my plant pot by the front door .. during the storm I moved the plant to a sheltered spot and there he/she was this morning .. safe and sound and thanking me .. brave little creature, just looks at me as I look at it .. so those 2 pots now belong to her/him ..

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

A Hurricane

I am Fine. The Cats are home is fine.
Everything around me is ......Fine.
My daughter and her new too -adorable -to -be real puppy are fine.

My whole neighborhood seems to be fine ..  I have to go buy groceries, I hope the store is fine.

When my husband and I moved here to Florida years and years ago, I was horrified with the Tornado warnings and Hurricanes ...
My husband laughed at me when I ran into the hall bathroom and sat in the bathtub .. the dog thought it was all great fun and jumped in with me.
Tornadoes frighten me more than Hurricanes, there is no time to evacuate and run away.
Hurricanes on the other hand are huge , destructive and include massive amounts of water ..

So imagine my delight when I heard we had a Category 5 Hurricane coming and I had no idea where to go or what to do .. I live in a condominium .. with a State forest behind me ... right behind me, it is sort of my back yard ..
I am not near an ocean or big waterway but who needs an ocean when you have a hurricane ? It brings its water with it .
And there are no hills and dales, just flat Florida.

I packed up the things that are very precious to me and stuck them here and there, places I hoped would still be intact when all was over ... and that was when it hit me.

I don't want to live like this .
I don't want a fear like that, lurking in the back of my mind every time it gets cloudy or rains a little.
I have no friends here, it isn't that sort of place ... people who have lived here for years will become friends and there is a sweet Southern way of nice and friendly but it is superficial, they don't ask you to go out shopping or anything ... they are just really nice when they talk to you for a few minutes.

So now is a time for a lot of decisions to be made and planning to be done and all kinds of Stuff.
Posting might be erratic ..  there is really very little to post about, living here .. how interested is anyone in the fact that I saw an Egret walking outside ..
A  turtle was rescued by Me , the Turtle Whisperer and taken back to the Forest where he made his wrong turn.
Otherwise, I am surrounded by nice strangers and beautiful skies and a forest and I might as well be on Mars for the feeling of isolation I have all the time.
So while I am able to .. I will make the next big change .. I am going home.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Little Frog

I went out when the storm began and dragged a huge pot with a nice big large leafed plant over into the garage from the front step.. my back will never forgive me.
I came back inside then wondered if it was in a good spot so I opened the front door and there was a tiny frog, sitting at the door.. wondering where his home went ..

I came inside and pondered ... what to do ... it would drive me crazy if I left the little frog homeless ..
I went to the garage and dragged the plant out onto the porch then pushed it across where there is a sheltered spot ..

I looked once and the little frog was still there ... confused perhaps.

I looked again a few minutes ago ... he is back in his pot .

I can relax now. No baby frog deaths on my conscience.

Merlin is taking a nap ..

Minette was stalking me .. she probably gave up. . . I am no fun.

Honey asked if there was anything left over from dinner so I gave her some roast chicken ..

Another cozy night with the cats while we wait for a Hurricane.


Things changed while I was relaxing and being glad that there would not be a direct hit from the Hurricane.
It is headed for us and I have nowhere else to go but stay here at home and tough it out.
I fear I am not very tough :(

The cats and I will hunker down, and pray that it goes by fast or decides to go somewhere else ..

Whatever happens, when it is over and when it is possible .. I will post again.

Everyone in the path of this weather, please go somewhere safe when you can .. and listen to the people that know what they are talking about.

Take care, Goodby for now.

Candice, Merlin, Minnette and Honey 

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Saturday September 9 , 2017

Sunday, September10, 2017

No one can predict the weather very well or at all and certainly no one can accurately predict the path of a Hurricane very well.

What was going to be a stormy time as Irma passed close by is now going to be a very scary stormy time with Irma hitting North Florida/where I live.

The news is warning people but the truth is .. it is too late for all that.
The highways are like parking lots with the thousands of people trying to go North / Away from here ..
Stores are all closed now.
The wind has picked up .. gusty ... not too scary .. the only thing that is scary is the warnings of flooding and high winds.

I am of course terrified but I will hang on to these cats of mine and hopefully we will all make it through this alive and in one piece .. I was going to say alive and well but I am already mentally damaged from all of this.

There is no way in this world that I will remain in Florida when this is over and I am still all in once piece.
I am sure the power won't last so I will post again whenever I can.
Everyone in the same predicament, I send my love and hopes for your safety and loved ones.
Keep those pets close !! Don't let them get out or loose , odds are, they will be gone forever if you lose a pet in a storm like this.
Take care ... goodbye for now. Candice

Saturday, September 9, 2017- Jacksonville, Florida

It has begun.

 Hurricane Irma

See you when it is over !!

The Quiet Before The Storm

It is grey, overcast and breezy and totally silent except for crows somewhere ...maybe they are yelling at the other crows to Fly North !!

I am here, staying home, there are others nearby and my daughter is the one that convinced me to stay home.
I would be on the road out in the open if I tried to leave now anyway .. the highways are packed with cars from here to the North .. I would rather be in my home than a car on a highway when it hits.

So wish us luck, I am anxious but not too.
This certainly did make me make some decisions that I had been dithering over .. this is not the life for me.

I will spend this time keeping busy so I don't get even more crazed, thank you so very much to S for sharing some medication that will keep my head from exploding ... or my heart ..

There are other people around me, it is not deserted here but feels like it is.

Tomorrow will be clean up and counting blessings day ..

Today I will make use of the time by packing :)

Talk to you tomorrow as long as we have electricity.

Ahhhhh it is getting windy.....

Friday, September 8, 2017

Stay Safe ....

There is a Hurricane coming then I hope we will be free of Hurricane talk for a long time.
I had forgotten how anxious and threatened you can feel when a huge storm that you cannot control or run from, is on its way .. then it hits .. then the news tells you and shows you all the damage and destruction.
One of the very good reasons I had for not wanting to live in Florida again.
I never learn.

This photo is just amazing .. I have a fondness for Cloud photos. I like taking them but this one is so amazing and in black and white which I had not considered .. When our storms are over and I can feel safe stepping outside, I will give some black and white photos a try.

I hope everyone who is down here in the South stays safe and snug and dry.
We can trade Hurricane stories in a couple of weeks ... when we are over the trauma of it all.

Stay safe, be careful ... Take care .. C

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Should I Stay or Should I Go

This is what told me to pack up my cats and go ....

Someone I know is staying here and she has lived in Florida for a long time .. and gone through storms of all sorts. I don't want to leave but I am afraid to stay.

I'll let you know what happens ~

You know, they don't have hurricanes in Buenos Aires.
They don't have snow storms either.

It is hot and dry most of the summer and chilly and sometimes grey in winter.

It is looking more and more tempting as the days go by ... 

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Here We Go Again

 There is a slight wind out. The air is   nice .. humid ..
I was going to visit the people next door but then they had to go to a party/overnight shindig at a friends new wonderful house. Boy I wish I got those sorts of invitations ...
But they took my phone number and gave me theirs and said if I need them, they are right next door.
Which is so very precious to me.

Being alone is one thing...
Being alone in a hurricane that is kind of large and scary is another.
And of course, there is no one around that offers to keep me company .. actually, when I am this anxious, people annoy me so I am better off alone with the cats.
They don't annoy me .. well, not too much. And if I yell at them, they purr .. not many people do that ... too bad ..

So .. I am making good use of my time and nervous energy .. I am packing.
And talking to the Son and hearing about things back in the land that I should have never left ... NY.

And I wish I had some Valium . LOL

I can't listen to the weather forecasts because they scare me.
But I did a while ago so I know what is happening so far and hope that it just blows over fast and the trees stay off my roof.
I brought in all the furniture off the lanai so that won't blow around ..

Right now everything is peaceful.
Miss Honey is sleeping on a baby mattress  that is now a cat bed.
Merlin is hiding .. probably in the pillows on my bed.
Minette fell asleep on the sofa .. she hates game shows.

So here we are ... the Calm Before the Storm.

I will keep busy packing and doing preps for packing and moving .. back to the Real World.
Where I can go out without getting lost ... where people remember me .. where I still have friends and family ... Florida was a mistake but I am so very lucky that I can fix that.

Now if the Hurricane just behaves and goes away quickly and quietly ...

Here I Go Again ...

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